The Pain We Never Planned In Our Little Girl Journals
It's 3:15 am.I've actually been awake since 1 am.My mind and body are still finding their way in my new life and schedule. Fell asleep into a hard sleep around 9 pm and woke up at 1am thinking it was already time to go to work.My house is quiet. But it's quiet during the day too, with all the kids grown and gone. But the silence now is more peaceful than it has ever been before. Newness. Presence. I'm never alone.My divorce has been a nightmare.For many years I did what all Christian women who believe in the sanctity of marriage do. I believed, prayed, submitted, got counseling, fasted, intercession, and cried out to God till my eyes nearly bled as much as my heart. The hardness of a heart can destroy one's dreams. [...]