The last 8 months have been an incredibly painful journey.

It was 2001 the last time I felt pain like this, but this is much worse. MUCH worse. Started in my shoulders. MRI showed shoulder spurs and degeneration. Went to my neck. MRI showed spondylosis and problems with 6 discs. Pain in my middle back that took my breath away. MRI and bone scans showed lesions, tumors, spinal cord changes. I think I know the C1, C2, T2 L4 type alphabet as well as any osteopath. I've been here before, kinda. Ulcerative Colitis, in remission. Doing well. At one point they were talking about my losing my colon, even fecal transplants. Now total remission. No meds. I could go on. Pain started at a young age. Arthritis as a young girl. Weeks in bed as a young girl. Immune compromising. Trauma emotionally, the list goes on.

God has done a wonderful work with my life. It doesn't make any sense how I can run such a large corporation, be building another soon, have a wonderful marriage of 22 years, remarkable sons who are powerful leaders. Well, it doesn't make sense to the natural mind, but in the economy of heaven it does.

"We need to do a few more tests before we do surgery on your neck and back," the neurosurgeon said. Then, the words I already knew of for months. God already had me pressing into heaven, speaking to functional medicine doctors, natropaths, MDs and more about it… already. "We need to see a neurologist and endocrinologist. We need to rule out MS."

I wasn't scared really. Healing is an interesting thing. You can't prescriptionize the work of God. He healed me of SLE Lupus and at that time I didn't even believe He would, I didn't even ask for Him to do it. An 8 hour encounter with heaven and it left my body. I know of people who are deaf and they've prayed and experienced hundreds of people who gain their hearing back. But they remain deaf. I've seen cancer leave, limbs grow, blind eyes opened. I believe!

You can't prescriptionize the work of God. Keep an offenseless heart. Something Papa Bill Johnson teaches that I've held dear in my heart. 

I have a wonderful local church family. They all prayed for me last Sunday. So many people, so much love. A different family moved to Indiana 8 years ago. A powerful family is now moving to KC. This body of believers has impacted my life so deeply. I've also been growing with the love and nurturing of Bethel Church in Redding, Elevation Church in North Carolina and Hillsong Church in Australia. Thousands of hours online. No lie. Thousands of hours of teaching, training, preaching, worship that I've listened to. It has rewritten my DNA.

I don't have fear really. It's scary. Really scary, but no fear. The constant numbness in my hands, my arms, total numbness from the shoulder to my fingertips as I raised my hands like I usually do in church during worship, the last two weeks, it ended in excruciating pain and complete numbness. Got so irritated with the devil I danced with all my might in the middle of the aisle too! Then sat in pain for 15 minutes, but it was well worth it. Ha! If I look up or look down, my arms go numb. Even as I lie here in bed writing to you, my legs are going numb. Walking with a cane again. Haven't done this since 2001. Not fearful, just scary.

I truly do trust God. He has me. I am not alone. I know that with every fiber of my being. I believe in healing with all of my heart!

6000 comments on one Facebook post today, "Will you please pray for me." You guys, my readers, my loyal online family, customers, friends and clients. What a blessing it was to lead the Social Media Managers class today with 890 students. Did the call in the parking lot after seeing neurosurgeon. A great diversion, distraction….. focus on serving others. Praising God I have that distraction. So grateful to be able to help others. Doing videos and writing and teaching, that's easy. I can rest and sleep and then teach a class of 890 people! What a wonderful life is mine! I am so so blessed. It keeps me going. The doctor said it's FANTASTIC, it will keep me healthy. 🙂 

These are unconnected thoughts. My brain ramblings. I'm sure someone is having a fit. "Can't she write? What is this?" Heehee it's my blog after all. I can write what I want. 

So blessed to have the best family in the world. A husband who still adores me, sons who light up a room and have all become my best friends. My first daughter in love. My heart is full.

Tests start tomorrow. Thanks for praying. I'll walk this journey out with all of you. I believe in you and your dreams! You're stuck with me, so don't worry, I'm not going anywhere. This is the beauty of social media- we, you and me, we get to do life together!

Love,

Sandi Krakowski